Sunday, May 18, 2008

Pleasant talk

I just wanted to say how fun and heart-warming it was to talk about childhood days and some other experience during Asia Cafe that day with you guys. It reminds me that we, no matter where we come from, how we are brought up, or whether you have this and I have not, we are still people who needs people around them to care and share.

I can't say how grateful for the life I had, since I was born till now. Somehow, as I grew older and knew how to think, I sense I'm a very lucky girl. Though I might not be perfect, I'm not popular, I'm not rich nor even had good brains, I shall still say i'm lucky. Luckier even more that I realise it. Imagine some people who had everything they had in life, or are probably better off some point or other, and not realising it. They will crave for more, for what others have that they don't, forever without peace in mind.

Today, I shall declare what I'm grateful for! and this will always serve as a reminder of what thanks i should have in life when I might start hating it.

1st: My Mom. To me, family come first before friends and I realise, that it is natural for most children to be closer to their mom than dad. (because i actually felt guilty sometimes that i love my mom more) She, is one who does not like shopping, does not dye her hair, is quite a practical person (nui chiang ren), the no nonsense, no emo and yet is very understanding. Well, i practically ask her anything, tell her (almost) everything, what my thoughts are and she too share her views. I'm a lucky cause she's damn really wise. Advice i give to my friends, i quote from her. (though I don't think I give good advice, to me, what she said often does make sense) and she's never tired of me asking for more hugs and asking silly questions like 'do you love me?' (Lol, it's a joke in my family, got the habit from my silly cousins)

Then this part would include my whole family, and those staying with me. My dad, he's cool in a sort of way that he's sometimes funny, and I'm really proud of him, no matter what short comings he have. And Pa, I do know, what you have sacrifice for us, and for me. Well, both my parents! Know that i appreciate it, although I might not remember always. Next, both my sis. The degree of closeness do differ, but i guess it's only natural, with the age gap. I know, I always scold, and I know my words can be very sharp to your easily sensitive pride. And I still do not approve of your attitude, >_><_<, but comes what may, Sis is still sis! The love is there!

My aunt, my ama, my maid, my cousins... it would take too long to express what thanks and what love i have for them! (sounds yucky like this, but it's true!) sou gou is my third parent, we might not live exactly under the same roof, but we are family, and likewise, I do know the sacrifice and help and lecture and fun yummy food you made for us! Ama, my dear ama, older she's getting, and even harder it is to communicate but I must not forget to appreciate her while she's still around. Ah, my maid, Unty... 13 long years she has been with us. We are indeed family! and my silly cousins, It's hard not to love them! They are the extra siblings that i get lecture from or dote on. And note: we do fight over the copmputer! Grrr...

Last but not least, Metta! the pet i have, you shall not lack the love i have to give, though it's not very often. I know i have not always justify what they have done for me, it's hard to resist temptaions in life, but I'll try, I'll make an effort to! I'll be nice to others, okay?


-innocent days-


2. My culture, my belief, and way of life. Thanks goodness I hope, that i'm not too arrogant. Thank my lucky stars i'm not too much of a spendrift. Thanks for the quite average brain I have, and no thanks for my low self esteem. But I swear i will improve! Thanks for my optimism. These two shouldn't exist together, but funnily, i think they do! Thanks for the upbringing I have, most of all, thankyou for the little bit of wise-ness or insight i might have in me! For now, I'm happy to be me.

3. My relatives and friends.To my uncle and aunties i can talk and share my thoughts with, thanks for the wise words, thankyou for i know I have good people in my extended family. People i've crossed lives with, my nakama! My special friend, and friends, and more friends. Thanks for helping, thanks for the things you guys have done. The friendship you gave to me, the acknowledgement, the smile you bestow upon me, the thoughts we share, the opinions we have, the disagreement among us, the togetherness we feel as people of this world. I thankyou for the people I've known. In one way or another, we have touch each others lives, we form thoughts and perceptions towards each other, there is a link. I might forget, might not remember, but it happened! and that is truth enough! and I look forward towards meeting even more people in the future!

4. Life. What is it? how certain can that person who gave you the answer for it? I might not truthfully know what is it yet, but it's existance itself I ThankYou for it. Because without it, there would be no me, no my thoughts, no know. and The World, the earth, a place where our existance can take form it. Lucky today that i'm still alive! and Food! my enjoyment =D

this are but just little parts of it. Anytime i want to express my gratefulness, expect another long post! For I'm currently out of 'Grateful Gas' now!

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